Tears. . .

It’s funny, how when we hide no one sees, it’s amazing how lies can make them believe, or maybe they just don’t really care. All life we live with masks, with that disgusting smiling, when you should have been crying.. Trying to be strong, Trying to remain still,. . its Funny. You kill yourself inside just so no one sees. The pain, that causes everything in your life, that smile, that doesn’t reach your eyes, those laughs that are hysterically trying to hide the truth. All those signals from your eyes, that are ignored. Where do you gain your strength? I know the answer, it’s in me, I gain it nowhere. I’m taking my reserves… I’m smiling just that I don’t have to talk about it … I’m breathing just that I don’t cause this pain for others.. I’m out of breath, I’m deadly tired and I hate lying all the time, I hate smiling even though I CAN’T, but I do..I do wake up in mornings, I face the challenges the life gives to me.. But as always everything’s hidden in my eyes, hidden from the world, trying to hide it from myself… The mask, that never drops, the truth that will never reach my eyes. Smile is no smile if you put the corners of your mouth up, it’s just a motion… It’s also emotion and feelings, something I’ll never show.